i feel like a cannibal, and not a fine young one.

mcdonalds has a special on their egg mcmuffin breakfast sandwiches.  try to contain your excitement.  a dollar for one.

that is just about the best thing you can eat for breakfast from a fast food restaurant, or i should say the best thing FOR ME.

after arriving home, having dropped the boys off and walked the dogs, i began eating said sandwich.  within seconds i was completely overwhelmed with the fact that i was eating an animal.   the smell, the taste, the knowledge that i was eating a animal WAS UNBEARABLE. 

i had to spit out what was in my mouth and throw away the rest.   just thinking about it now makes me want to throw up.  this is something that’s happened to me periodically over the past few years.  i’ll be going along happily eating whatever and realize that i’m eating an animal and want to puke my guts up.

one night a few years ago, eating a steak the husband made i had a similar experience.  the taste of the steak was gamey and i’ve never enjoyed gamey foods.  deer meat can suck it.  beef jerky can too.

i usually buy meat in bulk so i can wash it, break it up and store in the freezer for later use.  last year, while doing this i had an attack of, “OH MY GOD YOU ARE CUTTING UP MEAT.  YOU ARE A LIKE A CANNIBAL.  WHAT IF THIS WAS YOUR KID?”

i’ve “gone” vegan before, and “vegetarian”.  i never would have attempted it if there wasn’t some kind of pull from within.  i love vegetables and i’m a juicer from way back in the day.  i even have a BACK UP juicer in case my one breaks down.

now, i haven’t used that juicer in almost as much time as it’s been that my dad passed away.  it’s connected but the story is long so i’ll save you the hassle of that.

maybe it’s the juicer “calling me” to put it back in business.  i’m not sure i’ll ever be able to eat an egg mcmuffin again.

13 Responses to “i feel like a cannibal, and not a fine young one.”

  1. Lola Says:

    The title of this post is brilliant. I wish for it to be mine.

  2. scottw Says:

    I have been down that same road.

  3. Lisa from Kentucky Says:

    So watched a video of animals being slaughtered last year (seems like he got it from you, maybe not) and after not being able to watch the entire thing immediately became a vegetarian. I can see how it could happen.

  4. Lola Says:

    p.s. I’ve been moving toward anti-cannibalism myself recently. Just waiting and seeing.

  5. Cheree Says:

    Oh well more for me.

  6. leah Says:

    lola: aw shucks, flattery will get you far with me ;) i tend to eat less meat than most i believe. something about swearing something off in my head that causes a revolution. i have to “sneak” up on myself.

    scott: indeed we’re traveling it together.

    lisa: perhaps, i posted that horrible video here. my nephew sent it to me. he and his beloved are vegans.

    cheree: i love your positive outlook :)

  7. XUP Says:

    Leah – I can never understand people who love animals, have tons of pets,get all gush mushy over animals and then chow down on a ham sandwich or a big old chicken leg. Animals are our friends and we don’t eat our friends, right? Consuming a living thing that has had a life full of suffering and pain; a living thing that was slaughtered and in an unspeakable way; and you are consuming all that pain and suffering and terror and fear. That can’t be good for you, nevermind all the saturated fat stuff. I wish you well on your journey toward more ethical eating

  8. Ookami Snow Says:

    Well it looks like I am the one to defend yum here. The fact is, people are made to eat animals, we are omnivores, and we need to protean in animals to survive. Sure we probably shouldn’t eat as much meat as we do, and you could concoct some special combination of beans that gives the right protean (edamame is supposed to be good at that), but when it comes down to it, humans are meat eaters.

    I suggest taking two strips of bacon and call me in the morning.

  9. One Wink Says:

    Sometimes the smell of meat cooking in a restaurant or in the cafeteria at work makes me nauseous. I don’t eat much red meat at all, but I gotta have a roast beef meal a couple times a year. It’s like salt, I only eat it if my body craves it. I figure that counts for something. Don’t ask me what.
    Agreed, your title rawks.

  10. XUP Says:

    I disagree with Ookami. Humans are not meat eaters. Our digestive systems are far too long to efficiently process and extract the protein from meat. By the time it’s worked its way through our digestive tracts 48+ hours)it has putrified and given off toxins in our systems. We can extract protiens from nuts, seeds and other vegetable matter much more efficiently. Carnivorous animals have very short digestive systems. They also have sharp pointy teeth for ripping flesh. Ours are flat, best used for grinding and chewing. Millions of humans have survived without eating meat — and for much longer than humans who eat meat, I might add. Many of our dis-eases of the body can be attributed to a diet high in animal flesh. Our closest animal ancestors, the apes are primarily herbivores. They only eat meat when food is scarce — the same reasons why primitive man first began eating meat. Also, if we were meant to eat meat then we should be able to eat it raw. Aside from the fact that this isn’t palatable, we couldn’t even chew raw meat enough to be able to begin digesting it.

  11. cheree Says:

    Right on Ookami, there is a method to our meat eating madness.

    By the way, if I were to post in detail the full procedure of a partial birth abortion do you think it would have the powerful effect your nephew’s video did regarding eating animals. To bad PETA doesn’t consider humans to be animals because then maybe slaughtering babies would not be considered ok.

    I disagree with you XUP and so does my biology, anatomy & physiology, and nutrition teaching. Humans are omnivores, not herbivores, which have the long digestive tract and flat teeth, you describe. Omnivores’ tracts and teeth are in between carnivores and herbivores, not too short not too long,not too pointy not too flat, but just right like baby bear’s.

  12. leah Says:

    mr. snow, you are funny per the usual. and so freaking logical. were you born that way? b/c the scales needs to be tipped so more humans can have your logical-ness.

    one wink: i think you are a good example of listening to your body and what it needs. that’s how come you are so hawt.

    xup: i usually try to avoid that debate of how animals are built. mainly b/c i feel myself too ignorant of the details and there are so many different beliefs. i found when i was “going vegan” that it makes people down right angry. not sure why.

    cheree: you are even more vicious than you were before. must be that new mommy thing. you make good points. i love you. and, you are pretty.

  13. hellokitty Says:

    People do get really angry over not eating meat. Maybe it’s because they feel guilty and it makes them angry that they are not willing to put forth the effort to make such a lifestyle change or maybe it’s different and that makes them scared.

    As far as the health issue, many doctors are now embracing plant based diets due to our overwhelming rise in obesity and heart conditions. (My mother has now lost 135 lbs. since becoming a vegetarian.) Certain branches of veganism allow the consumption of scallops and other animals which do not have a central nervous system. When a vegan eats the way they should, all of their nutritional needs are met.

    I’m not really sure why people have such an issue with PETA. It’s so funny how defensive people get when the horrors of an industry they support are exposed. I guess it’s nice to not have to make the connection to a life when meat is placed in a little nice package for you. If you don’t support the killing of babies, why would you support the slaughtering of a baby cow? PETA takes no stand upon the abortion issue. Here is a quotation from their site:

    “There are people on both sides of the abortion issue in the animal rights movement, just as there are people on both sides of animal rights issues in the pro-life movement. And just as the pro-life movement has no official position on animal rights, the animal rights movement has no official position on abortion.”

    I know this was a long post, but I find the following statement from PETA to be very thought provoking…

    “Everybody is entitled to his or her own opinion, but freedom of thought is not the same thing as freedom of action. You are free to believe whatever you want as long as you don’t hurt others. You may believe that animals should be killed, that black people should be enslaved, or that women should be beaten, but you don’t always have the right to put your beliefs into practice. The very nature of reform movements is to tell others what to do—don’t use humans as slaves, don’t sexually harass women, etc.—and all movements initially encounter opposition from people who want to continue to take part in the criticized behavior.”

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