lots of small randoms
May 7, 2008 by dailypiglet
random #1
i went to a new doctor on monday to see about some specialized testing of my hormones and food allergy testing. i got a prescription for chantix which is supposed to help you stop smoking. i told the doctor flat out that i enjoy smoking, wondering if it would remove the desire somehow, magically. it is supposed to block the nicotine receptors in your brain.
the whole reason i even brought it up is b/c my son is hounding me to quit. i quit as soon as i learned i was pregnant with him and then through breastfeeding. i couldn’t take the pressure anymore and started back when he was almost a year old.
when our daughter was younger, she hounded me about it too, not wanting me to die. when the drug education started up at her school, i told my husband that we should just home school. she’s going to learn how to read and we won’t be able to spell things out anymore.
it’s a big turning point when your kids learn to read. as i quickly search for drake and josh or icarly on the tube, they notice you passed over the disney channel b/c THEY CAN SPELL.
anyway, i’ve noticed an air of depression sitting on my shoulders. i do not believe it to be a hopeless bout of depression, those are far worse. perhaps it’s the chantix, who knows. i have many things i could place the blame on, but really sometimes i just get depressed and my job is to just walk through it. i don’t have to “do” anything about it. except, write about it here b/c i can.
random #2
i got a badge and you din-nit.
random #3
i got dooce’s book yesterday and i am really enjoying all of the essays. it’s a perfect book for me due to my desire to read EVERYTHING, and the stories vary with each writer and i like variety. i will say that heather’s essay “day job” is very close to home. or rather, the “story” in our home. it’s required reading for the husband.
i wanted to read leah’s essay first but forced myself not to, as she is one of my favorite authors. it’s like that awesome chocolate that costs $15 for one truffle. you do not want to eat it whole, you savor that chocolate.
technically, i am a read the last page first kind of person, which i blame on oprah.
random #4
this guy is an intelligent writer, and that is a great quality in my book. he wrote a recent post about internet addiction, blogging addiction, etc.
i am sure there are some people out there that are peeing in their chairs b/c they won’t get up and away from the computer (maybe they don’t have laptops?) no way does that only happen vegas.
neil’s post suggested we all back away from the computer for 24 hours or more.
this got stuck in my brain a little and i’ve been pondering it. in some ways, blogging has allowed me to stay in the moment (not that his point was completely lost on me, it wasn’t).
i carry a notebook, my camera and my ipod every place i go. taking a photo of a man i did not know, and then of a turkey shortly after that is my example of living in the moment.
i had a random conversation in my head with neil, and what i said to him was “neil, that was a good post and you have a great point. but look at me over here taking pictures of things happening in my life. isn’t that being in the moment?”
to which neil replied, “look you crazy stalker, you have GOT to stop talking to me or i really am going to call the police.”
I think it is good and needful that we have passions, but our passions cannot rule us. I know what it was like to try to get my Mom to quit smoking when I was young….it’s just that your kids love you and you now what it can do to you. I recently had a talk with my wife about carrying the little extra “love pudge” in front and what it does to the female heart, as well as the man. I said this with tears in my eyes because I need her…our kids need her….she is needed….you are too! We know what’s best, sometimes we just don’t choose the best. I have not said this in such a long time, but Philippians 4:13 says that “you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.” I have found that to be true. I have done things both ways…still try to take the wheel like a little child, but I know that I cannot do this thing called life alone, or find strength for most things in someone else. In Christ alone in find my strengh. I hope that you did not find this to be “preaching.” I just love God and people….simple as that
You can’t do anything for your kids if you are dead from lung cancer. There are so many things out of our control as parents, but minimizing the damage you do to yourself via drugs (not suggesting you take drugs), cigarettes, alcohol etc…is the one thing you CAN control.
joey: i appreciate your words, did not take it as preaching.
kevlar: yeah, ok.
If I’m being completely honest, I probly am addicted to blogging. If you ask PD, I’m sure he would say I am. If there is such a thing as a positive, versus a negative, addiction (maybe I’m in denial?) though, I would call it that. It’s enriched my life in several ways, not the least of which is giving me an outlet for my thoughts which would otherwise be left inside (and most likely) have caused me to explode on more than one occasion. And some of the people I’ve “met” well, I can’t imagine not having around.
So I’ll be reading Neil’s post.